I was once a  mermaid..

I was once a mermaid.. I was once a  child of the ocean. It was dark and beautiful there, under the ocean. I used to take a nap on the waves. My name used to be Aqua.


Shooting with Stanley Chung at the La Peruse. Wearing Shakuhachi dress, Papinelle knickers  and nothing else.

                                                           Modern Day Alice
                                               A girl in her dreamland..

I've always been a dreamer. I've always been addicted to fairytales. I'm a an incurable 'Alice in Wonderland' fan. Mostly, I see myself as Alice. I've wandered and still wander through my own Wonderland. I've moved, travelled and lived abroad on my own. I'm always on a journey. Well, life is a journey right?
I'm always dreaming to go somewhere new. I felt like an Alice when I first moved to Kuala Lumpur. I was an Alice in Singapore. I felt like an Alice when I moved to Sydney on my own.
I was in Alice in Wonderland in Tokyo.

“I can't go back to yesterday because I was a different person then.” ( Alice's Adventures in Wonderland).
Wearing 'Playing On The Waves' by Alice Mccal, headband & socks by Alannah Hill, bag by Nile Perch, Tokyo and  shoes by Acne from Incu.

                                                            I like Fairy Floss

I like Fairy Floss. I like to wear Fairy Floss-like skirts and dresses.
I like to look like Fairy Floss. I like pink roses. I like pink balloons, bubble gums, strawberry milk shakes & pink tutu skirts.

I may be spoiled. I may be a too girly girl. I'm a bit of a princess. But I'm brave and strong willed.
I'm a girly girl with tattoos, boots & fishnet. I am sweet. I am tough..

                                                            Lolita by day..

“Lolita, light of my life, fire of my loins. My sin, my soul. Lo-lee-ta: the tip of the tongue taking a trip of three steps down the palate to tap, at three, on the teeth. Lo. Lee. Ta. She was Lo, plain Lo, in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in slacks. She was Dolly at school. She was Dolores on the dotted line. But in my arms she was always Lolita. Did she have a precursor? She did, indeed she did. In point of fact, there might have been no Lolita at all had I not loved, one summer, an initial girl-child. In a princedom by the sea. Oh when? About as many years before Lolita was born as my age was that summer. You can always count on a murderer for a fancy prose style. Ladies and gentlemen of the jury, exhibit number one is what the seraphs, the misinformed, simple, noble-winged seraphs, envied. Look at this tangle of thorns.” (Vladimir Navbokov, Lolita). 


I'm a Lolita too, by day. I've always been a bit of Lolita. I've fallen in love so many times. I was  a premature teen girl in my teen years. Sometimes, it seems it stopped there like I stopped growing around at that age.  Sometimes I'm still that girl who is so carefree, who wears lace socks, heart shaped glasses, for ice cream coffee or milkshake is the most important matter. I'm spoiled sometimes. I get up late, and look for sandwiches my boyfriend prepared for me.  Sometimes, I like my hair in pigtails or two high ponytails..

I live in my own girly world.. I'm a child girl sometimes. Sometimes, I want nothing more than time for myself, where I just lay on the grass, with legs up, read (more like just see pretty images) my girly magazine...

Or I wear my prettiest dress and walk out of my house happily just to get caramel machiatto from Starbucks then go to a Kiokuniya and flick through the girliest magazines and fashion books. 

I will never fully grow up like the others just like I was matured too early unlike the others.. 

Photo credit: Model Photographic, Bob Lang. 
Shoes: 'Dark Purple Kid' by Energy from Zomp Shoes 
Heartshaped sunnies from Harajuku market. 
Magazine : L'ARME, Girly Fashion Art book.
Dress: 'Cherry girl', Attic
Socks: TOPSHOP. 

                                              KRIJLA (Wings). Dark Fantasy.

You're taking off your evening dress

standing with your face to the wall.
And I can see the fresh scars
on your velvet-smooth back.

I feel like crying from the pain
or falling asleep to forget everything 1
Where are those wings of yours
that I was so fond of?

Where are those wings of yours
that I was so fond of?
Where are those wings of yours
that I was so fond of?

We used to have time,
now all we have is work.
Proving that the powerful feast upon the weak,
Proving that things are going from bad to worse. 2

We've all lost something
in this insane war.
So, where are those wings of yours
that I was so fond of?

I'm not asking you how much money you have,
or how many husbands you've had.
I can see you're afraid of open windows
and upper floors.

If a fire breaks out tomorrow
and the whole building goes up in flames,
we'll perish without those wings of yours
that I was so fond of.

Lyrics of 'Krijla' song, by Russian band Natiulus Pompilus, 'Dark Fantasy' (as named by me), dress by Shakuhachi, Photography by Kelly Anne Photography.
I was looking at these pictures Kelly emailed me, and I couldn't help but reminded of the song Kirjla
by my all time favourite Russian rock band Natiulus Pompilus. It's a very dark yet beautiful song. Just like this dress from Shakuhachi.
The floating long, silk dress with dark blue & purple colors has something very dark, poetic and fantasy like about it. For a night out I wear with my darkest lipstick, jewelled clutch and high heeled Acne boots.
For a day out,  I'd just wear it Jeffrey Campbel platform sandals, Kate Spade box clutch, and plum dark lipstick.

                                                           All About Body

Training, fitness, getting toned & cellulite..Yeah, those familiar words. Specially when its close to or when it is summer..
I met Kamil in my local cafe. We go to same cafe for take-away coffees. He is friends with the car people, so am I.  It was long before I knew he was a personal trainer,  we would greet each other, and smile. You know the friendly neighbour smile.
One summer day, I was bragging about how I want to get fitter  and that I might need to find a personal trainer, with my friend, who works at the cafe.
Kamil was next to us. He said I look like a model. So typical. I know.  But he said if I wanted to get fitter he could help me and that he is a personal trainer.
I was excited. We planned a day to catch up for coffee and chat about my body first.
To admit the truth, I like my body. I like my shape and figure. What I don't like is that I'm not perfectly fit. Far from it. If you talk about how you want to hit the gym and get fitter, a lot of people think you're insecure or not confident. No, I'd say I am confident.
I know how to dress my shape. I know all about my body. I'm a petite, hourglass.
And this is what I exactly told him. But I have cellulite which I want to get rid of. I've put few extra kilos during winter because of increased appetite and to keep warm.. On top of that I haven't been training. A bit more than a  month ago, I bought running wear from Lorna Jane and these comfy and stylish New Balance runners from Platypus. I ran few times and I kind of got busy and left it.
Anyways, what I want is to get more toned and more muscular body. Not so much full on muscles which you might be imagining. But I want convert some of the fat to muscle. I want toned, fit legs, butt, tummy and arms. It's not the just about the looks, but I want to feel healthier and stronger.

Do you know what I mean? At least Kamil knows what I mean. I showed him pictures and openly told him all about my body and what I want to achieve.

My blogging and modelling work requires me to be super fit nowadays. Also, I did ballet for years, as a teenager. I want to get back to where I was before I stopped training. You know, college, partying, work, busy schedule,  boyfriend... Excuses...

But in recent years, my  legs got so weak that now when I go to Sydney Dance Company (like twice, three times a year),  and dance ballet, I get massive cramps and I can't even walk home after the class.

I want to be used to exercises. It sounds ambitious or not, but one day, in near future, after I get super fit, I wanna go back to ballet. I want to be on pointe shoes again.

By now, we have trained five times in last two weeks, out of that, one being at the gym and the rest outdoors in a park.
Kamil comes prepared for each training with a written plan of what exercises we will do for how many minutes and how long the breaks will be etc. He is a funny person, who jokes a lot. So every time before when we just start the training, I laugh a lot, like it will be funny. But no. It's hard!
He is funny guy but he is serious about training. He really pushes me to do my best. But what I love is that the energy. He is a very energetic and passionate trainer.

We combine the  training with swimming, sauna, steam & jakuzi.
As all of the above together are great treatment for cellulite. We are doing lots of squats and other exercise that really work on legs, thighs and butt. Hot and cold shower, sauna, steam & jakuzi, they all increase blood circulation, therefore help to break the fat cells which is so called cellulite.
When I'm in either sauna, steam room or jacuzzi, I massage and rub my thighs a lot to increase the blood circulation even more.

However, I leave this post here. I will keep writing about my training and how my body is improving! :) :) :P
XOXOX.

Kouture Kitty.

My Lorna Jane sports bra, running shorts and New Balance runners from Platypus.

Me and my trainer Kamil.

                                                       The typical 'before' photo.

                                                       All about Teeth-Pure Smile

Today was a day all about teeth.  I went to Broadway shopping centre for my second  cosmetic teeth whitening appointment at the Pure Smile.
A friendly girl with big smile, (with absolutely spotless, shining white teeth), welcomed me and introduced the procedures. I was quite  familiar with procedure as it was my second time.
However, my previous treatment was held at the Darling Harbour shopping centre, (which now re-located in Miranda).
Her name is Flavie, she was absolutely professional and helpful. She had me sit in the little round booth,  and gave me brush, toothpaste,  two plastic cups,  (one for spitting out after brushing your teeth and the other for putting the brush) and a small bottle of water.

After brushing my teeth I was told to place the mouth tray with whitening gel in my mouth and wear these big red glasses to protect my eyes from the laser which she put near my mouth facing the teeth.
They replace the mouth tray with new gel every 15 minutes, per sessions run from 30-45 minutes each time. You also get to brush your teeth each time. The booth is so comfortable and relaxable that you'd fall asleep, (I fell asleep each time!).

The result was fantastic! I went up to at least 3 shades whiter!
Overall, it was a fantastic experience. I'd like to thank the Pure Smile team.
For more info check their website : http://www.puresmile.com.au

 Below here are some photos of the day!

This is how it works.. 

That's the home-use product they gave together with this soft cushion toothpaste. :)